When I was nineteen


 When I was nineteen, I lost my sense of direction and the light to follow.

 

It felt as if I were desperately pedaling a bicycle whose chain had already snapped. Hopeless, maybe — and in a strange way, a little comical.

 

Perhaps life is nothing more than a collection of regrets.

 

 



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